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When I pay attention to others needs and feelings. I feel I can love more openly when I am more receptive to other peoples feelings. I need to work on this and be more aware of others and more loving and caring.
I have loved well when I have been willing to work with my dog despite his aggressive tendencies. Now that my nerves have calmed down, I am having less problems with him. I did not give up, and I feel that my hard work is paying off.
My morning meditation which floods the entire area and people in the current invasion zone of Ukrainian was powerful. The “Rosy-Red light of the Logos-Love came quickly and stayed strong.
The latter part of the meditation is …
feel your whole body and mentally see it filled with ….white light…..
You see a shining body……..
Now surround it with a pale-blue haze. [1;43]
….long pause…………[2;15]
in every breath you take …make your shining body, surrounded by its pale-blue haze ….lighter and lighter….like a shimmering diamond
………..long pause ……..[3;30]
see how your shining body is rising ….higher and higher untill you are very high up above the village, or town, or city or country you wish to help.
[3:50]……long pause………………[4;37]
move on higher above the earth ……until you can see the whole country and its people beneath you……….[5;15]
now flood the whole country with a ..rosy light.. ….[5;44]
when you have really flooded the country with ..rosy light.. of Logoic Love ….rise even higher until the whole planet is visible to you. [6;00]
………………………long pause……………..[7;00]
SEE This beautiful ball is the planet you live on as a present day personality ………long pause………[7;55] …
See how our planet earth rotates………….
…………..see the harmony and peace…………
….see the cloud patterns and the pale-blue haze surrounding the planet earth……………[9;24]…..
…………..see the land mass showing redish brown colors ….and the dark blue oceans. [10;20]……
Now flood the planet as a whole with ..rosy light.. .
………………..pause…………..[11;00]……..
finally expand yourself until you can take the planet…
still glowing with ..rosy light… into your heart. ..[11;35]…..
Feel that the planet lives within you, in your Self…[12;25]
and now lower down and slowly return to your psychical and material body. [13;15]
My mother was taking her last breaths when a song came on the radio: “I will remember you” and my youngest sister spontaneously started singing this to my mom.
I loved my sister for her generous spirit.
Yesterday, last week, last month, last year, and the past five-ish years… that’s about when I decided to change my life. I didn’t love well before then, but I’ve healed and learned and love well every day now!
HI everyone, I have been offline for a bit. I just wanted to drop by and let you all know that I made it out of Australia. I am in Thailand, reunited with my partner after two years of Covid separation. My health is getting better through much diligence, fight, and loving laughter. I go to the USA next week and then we go to Belize to start the first hospice in the country around mid-May. This too is love. But today I write to thank everyone for your love and support these past few years. Such invaluable love and kindness. THANK YOU….I’ll drop in from time to time and say hi and share what I am thankful for…Today, it’s YOU!
Dear Dusty Su, so happy you are back with your partner. Thank you for sharing your good news with all of us here. Sending you love, light & peace in all you do. Blessings. ❤️🙏❤️✨
Happy to see you being back, dear Dusty Su! It is heartwarming to know you have been able to finally leave Australia again and to return to Thailand and to your partner. Your plans to go on and start a hospice. Wishing all the best for realizing your plans. Looking forward to hearing from you. Blessings be always with you, dear friend.
The all night vigils at my grandmother’s bedside, holding her hand and talking to her even though she was not conscious. The doctors had told me several times that she would not last the night, me being the closest relative in distance, I was only a 20 minute car journey from her so I was always the first person in attendance at the hospital, staying with her until morning when my mother would arrive and I return home to sleep. I sat and told her that it was ok to let go, to not be afraid of letting go, that we all love her. I thanked her for all the times we had especially when I was a child. This happened three times, she was not, in spite of being in her mid 90s and very poorly, ready to let go.
She went on to live in a care home for another two years, she died in her sleep, alone. At least I know that I got to say the things to her that I wanted to the previous times I was sat at her bedside. She could be a very difficult person to like, she was angry, bitter and always grieving for her husband and for her lost (adopted) babies, life had been hard for her. I could see why she behaved the way that she did, sadly she managed to alienate many of those she loved including her youngest daughter, and that made her even sadder, angrier and more bitter. I loved her fiercely, warts and all. She died right at the start of the pandemic, we were not able to attend her funeral as the regulations around funeral attendance had not yet been put in place, I don’t feel as though we had a proper goodbye. Rest in peace Nanny.
Thank you, lamme! Thanks to my daughter and her husband, we 3 were all with my mother the day she died. She had reverted to behaving like a hungry baby – so sad! Her mother had told her at one point that she had always been a ‘mean and spiteful child,’ so I told her, over and over and over, ‘you were a good girl, Jean!’ She died that night after we left.
What a beautiful thing to do Mica, so many older people carry so much shame and hurt from childhood around with them for a lifetime, it’s so very sad. I am sure my grandmother was full of shame and rejection and loss. She was so full of shame that she didn’t want to talk about it at all, I wish that she could and that she could have accepted that the past and her experiences then, were nothing to be ashamed of and that she could not be blamed. No amount of reassurance of love and understanding seemed to reach her, it is very sad. My comfort is that we did all that we could to show her she was loved, ultimately that is all anyone can do for another person.
Humans can wield such power over other humans, the trick is to be so sure of our own worth that negative power bounces off the shield we create whilst allowing that shield to be permeable to love.
Thank you, lamme – my goal had been to carry no resentments with me after she died, and seeing her dying certainly helped me achieve that goal. We children did not mourn her passing, but we had a wonderful reunion to scatter her ashes at the lake where her family had had a cabin.
May your shield be a gentle soft one, dear lamme. Warm wishes to you –
Did you know that very very often, when people are going to leave their body and relatives are sitting at the bedsides , the dying person sends their relatives out of the room for having a breakfast ore going for a little walk. Or they leave the room for toilette, the patient gives up his body at this very moment when he is alone. This happens again and again. May be it is easier to leave? You gave your best. What more could you do? There was love
I have heard this. If I had the active choice to wait until alone or to depart surrounded by loved ones, I really don’t know which way I would go. Knowing my grandmother, in spite of her often telling us that she didn’t want to die alone, in someways it did feel like she had made a choice.
Yes, I know this well. I see them do this a lot. They don’t want the last thing to be the memory of them dying. They are more in charge than we realize. They also wait for things to be cleared, or people to arrive, things to be right before they go. It’s all love for the most part.
I have died and I am Deathwalker, or end-of-life doula. At the other end of the dying spectrum experiences, I often make an appointment with the dying person if I am not with them for them to visit me when they go. They do.
You are predestined to open a hospice. What a big task. Yes this requires a lot and constant love. May god bless you and your undertaking. With respect and best wishes from my heart , Dusty Su. Hermann
I have no doubt that I am called to the walk on am on…I keep getting led back to it throughout the decades. It fits so well. Thanks for the blessings and wishes. Appreciated Hermann.
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Mica
3 years ago
I want to be alone when I die – that will be a time after I have ‘said farewell’ to my loved ones and it will be a time for me to be alone.
I died alone in a foreign country during one of the toughest periods of my life. But I count it as one of my life’s best highlights. I was not afraid, rather totally at peace, and it was beautiful. I was upset to be sent back.
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O.Christina
3 years ago
Today is the birthday of my mother who died two years ago, and as long as I can remember, I loved her.
When my daughter was born I felt so much love that I thought I couldn‘t bear it . It was overwhelming. I never felt so much love in my life. I would have given my life for her. At the age of five month she got a vaxination and she became handicapped. Her mother couldn‘t bear it and left us. I gave up my life as an artist and learnt my new profession as a nurse. Since almost thirty years I have the chance to love. But there is another love also. It may sound philosophical. But often in my meditation I feel very strongly we are born in love , we live in love, and we will go in love. Things coming… love, things are not coming.. love. Some how we are made out of love.
Hermann-Josef, you are a beautiful human being. Thank you for all the love you have & are pouring out into our world. The world is badly in need of your selfless love. Your daughter is blessed to have you. May you be an example to us All. ❤️🙏❤️
” The world is badly in need of your selfless love” – yes! and if I may add – in need of yours, mine and of all our selfless love. To care for in this way like you do, dearest Hermann-Josef is humbling me and you have my deepest respect. All my heart is with you. May blessings always be with you also, dear friend.
So do you dear Kevin. We all love Love. And we all love to love. In my believe we all came here to express love. To express ourselves. Because in essence we all are love finding creative ways to have a look at ourselves, and to give others the chance to express their love. Serving, loving and giving is a great joy to all of us. It is a natural joy. Because it is not my love, his or her love. In this we are not separate from each other. We are one. ( normally I don‘ t talk that much. I am sorry. This page is somehow tempting. )
You sir too, are the manifestation of love. . .
I am so sorry to hear that vaccination damaged your daughter, and it’s so sad that your wife couldn’t cope. It’s a credit to you that you didn’t abandon your baby. Vaccines can be amazing things, but it angers me that governments like to pretend vaccine injuries do not happen.
As a child, a new family moved in a few doors down from me, I was so excited because I was the only girl, surrounded by boys in my road. I loved playing football and riding my bike but I wanted a girl to play dollies with and I’d been told that the girl moving in was my age. The family arrived, it was a mother with a severely handicapped daughter. The daughter had no hands, no legs below the knees and was severely mentally impaired, almost no speech. She had been vaccine damaged as a baby, abandoned in the hospital by her parents. A young nurse had adopted her, she was utterly devoted to her adopted daughter, she never married and looked after her until her death. Such selfless love. The daughter, now a woman in her late 50s still lives in the same property with full time carers.
Love has a myriad of forms, I agree with you, love is the essence of us and of life.
When I felt love burn.
Karel my husband had problems with his left hand. The doctor wanted a scan because he thought it might be a minor stroke. The result was a shock; a brain tumor the size of a fist. We had ended up in a strange mill. A hospital psychologist came to assist us. She asked me how I felt. All I could say as tears streamed down my cheek. “I only feel love and it burns”. That was really all I felt. It was so real and straight from the heart. Perhaps the most genuine feeling I’ve ever had in my life.❤
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I’d hope that when I love it’s good enough. I don’t aspire to more. You’d have to ask my partner. Or maybe my dog.
When I pay attention to others needs and feelings. I feel I can love more openly when I am more receptive to other peoples feelings. I need to work on this and be more aware of others and more loving and caring.
when I am just BEING
walking into a room full of people and having only good things to say
walking outside and feeling I could kiss the world
being enveloped with a warm light while teaching a friend how to play cutthroat cribbage, she had signed up for a tournament the following day
in the garden, pulling weeds with Mother, sharing the deep silence of the earth and a bit of dry humor
loving for the sake of loving and no other reason
I have loved well when I walk with my mom through the forest.
I have loved well when I have been willing to work with my dog despite his aggressive tendencies. Now that my nerves have calmed down, I am having less problems with him. I did not give up, and I feel that my hard work is paying off.
When I Love from my core – the Eye of the I.
When I have shown it.
My morning meditation which floods the entire area and people in the current invasion zone of Ukrainian was powerful. The “Rosy-Red light of the Logos-Love came quickly and stayed strong.
The latter part of the meditation is …
feel your whole body and mentally see it filled with ….white light…..
You see a shining body……..
Now surround it with a pale-blue haze. [1;43]
….long pause…………[2;15]
in every breath you take …make your shining body, surrounded by its pale-blue haze ….lighter and lighter….like a shimmering diamond
………..long pause ……..[3;30]
see how your shining body is rising ….higher and higher untill you are very high up above the village, or town, or city or country you wish to help.
[3:50]……long pause………………[4;37]
move on higher above the earth ……until you can see the whole country and its people beneath you……….[5;15]
now flood the whole country with a ..rosy light.. ….[5;44]
when you have really flooded the country with ..rosy light.. of Logoic Love ….rise even higher until the whole planet is visible to you. [6;00]
………………………long pause……………..[7;00]
SEE This beautiful ball is the planet you live on as a present day personality ………long pause………[7;55] …
See how our planet earth rotates………….
…………..see the harmony and peace…………
….see the cloud patterns and the pale-blue haze surrounding the planet earth……………[9;24]…..
…………..see the land mass showing redish brown colors ….and the dark blue oceans. [10;20]……
Now flood the planet as a whole with ..rosy light.. .
………………..pause…………..[11;00]……..
finally expand yourself until you can take the planet…
still glowing with ..rosy light… into your heart. ..[11;35]…..
Feel that the planet lives within you, in your Self…[12;25]
and now lower down and slowly return to your psychical and material body. [13;15]
My mother was taking her last breaths when a song came on the radio: “I will remember you” and my youngest sister spontaneously started singing this to my mom.
I loved my sister for her generous spirit.
Yesterday, last week, last month, last year, and the past five-ish years… that’s about when I decided to change my life. I didn’t love well before then, but I’ve healed and learned and love well every day now!
When I listen well so that I “see” the other person.
I love really well every day.
HI everyone, I have been offline for a bit. I just wanted to drop by and let you all know that I made it out of Australia. I am in Thailand, reunited with my partner after two years of Covid separation. My health is getting better through much diligence, fight, and loving laughter. I go to the USA next week and then we go to Belize to start the first hospice in the country around mid-May. This too is love. But today I write to thank everyone for your love and support these past few years. Such invaluable love and kindness. THANK YOU….I’ll drop in from time to time and say hi and share what I am thankful for…Today, it’s YOU!
It’s so good to hear from you! I wish you the best of luck in Belize and look forward to any updates:)
Thanks, Michele. It’s very exciting to say the least.
That’s great news, Dusty Su. Wishing you all the success in the world with your project in Belize. Many blessings 🙏
Thanks Butterfly…appreciated xxx
Dear Dusty Su, so happy you are back with your partner. Thank you for sharing your good news with all of us here. Sending you love, light & peace in all you do. Blessings. ❤️🙏❤️✨
Thank you PKR…it’s wonderful to be back and to be back in even better ways. Appreciate your love, light, peace.
There is your smiling face again! 🙏😊🤗
Yes, it’s smiling big.
Happy to see you being back, dear Dusty Su! It is heartwarming to know you have been able to finally leave Australia again and to return to Thailand and to your partner. Your plans to go on and start a hospice. Wishing all the best for realizing your plans. Looking forward to hearing from you. Blessings be always with you, dear friend.
Thank you Ose, so lovely to hear from you. I sure appreciate your presence and responses.
Dusty Su, so good to “see” you again! Thank you for the update. May you be blessed and loved in all you do…..
Thank you Mary Pat. It’s so nice to be back…
When? I am at peace saying that I have loved really well all my life.
I have loved really well with all of my relationships.
The all night vigils at my grandmother’s bedside, holding her hand and talking to her even though she was not conscious. The doctors had told me several times that she would not last the night, me being the closest relative in distance, I was only a 20 minute car journey from her so I was always the first person in attendance at the hospital, staying with her until morning when my mother would arrive and I return home to sleep. I sat and told her that it was ok to let go, to not be afraid of letting go, that we all love her. I thanked her for all the times we had especially when I was a child. This happened three times, she was not, in spite of being in her mid 90s and very poorly, ready to let go.
She went on to live in a care home for another two years, she died in her sleep, alone. At least I know that I got to say the things to her that I wanted to the previous times I was sat at her bedside. She could be a very difficult person to like, she was angry, bitter and always grieving for her husband and for her lost (adopted) babies, life had been hard for her. I could see why she behaved the way that she did, sadly she managed to alienate many of those she loved including her youngest daughter, and that made her even sadder, angrier and more bitter. I loved her fiercely, warts and all. She died right at the start of the pandemic, we were not able to attend her funeral as the regulations around funeral attendance had not yet been put in place, I don’t feel as though we had a proper goodbye. Rest in peace Nanny.
Thank you, lamme! Thanks to my daughter and her husband, we 3 were all with my mother the day she died. She had reverted to behaving like a hungry baby – so sad! Her mother had told her at one point that she had always been a ‘mean and spiteful child,’ so I told her, over and over and over, ‘you were a good girl, Jean!’ She died that night after we left.
What a beautiful thing to do Mica, so many older people carry so much shame and hurt from childhood around with them for a lifetime, it’s so very sad. I am sure my grandmother was full of shame and rejection and loss. She was so full of shame that she didn’t want to talk about it at all, I wish that she could and that she could have accepted that the past and her experiences then, were nothing to be ashamed of and that she could not be blamed. No amount of reassurance of love and understanding seemed to reach her, it is very sad. My comfort is that we did all that we could to show her she was loved, ultimately that is all anyone can do for another person.
Humans can wield such power over other humans, the trick is to be so sure of our own worth that negative power bounces off the shield we create whilst allowing that shield to be permeable to love.
Thank you, lamme – my goal had been to carry no resentments with me after she died, and seeing her dying certainly helped me achieve that goal. We children did not mourn her passing, but we had a wonderful reunion to scatter her ashes at the lake where her family had had a cabin.
May your shield be a gentle soft one, dear lamme. Warm wishes to you –
You are such a tender soul.
Did you know that very very often, when people are going to leave their body and relatives are sitting at the bedsides , the dying person sends their relatives out of the room for having a breakfast ore going for a little walk. Or they leave the room for toilette, the patient gives up his body at this very moment when he is alone. This happens again and again. May be it is easier to leave? You gave your best. What more could you do? There was love
I have heard this. If I had the active choice to wait until alone or to depart surrounded by loved ones, I really don’t know which way I would go. Knowing my grandmother, in spite of her often telling us that she didn’t want to die alone, in someways it did feel like she had made a choice.
Yes, I know this well. I see them do this a lot. They don’t want the last thing to be the memory of them dying. They are more in charge than we realize. They also wait for things to be cleared, or people to arrive, things to be right before they go. It’s all love for the most part.
I have died and I am Deathwalker, or end-of-life doula. At the other end of the dying spectrum experiences, I often make an appointment with the dying person if I am not with them for them to visit me when they go. They do.
You are predestined to open a hospice. What a big task. Yes this requires a lot and constant love. May god bless you and your undertaking. With respect and best wishes from my heart , Dusty Su. Hermann
I have no doubt that I am called to the walk on am on…I keep getting led back to it throughout the decades. It fits so well. Thanks for the blessings and wishes. Appreciated Hermann.
I want to be alone when I die – that will be a time after I have ‘said farewell’ to my loved ones and it will be a time for me to be alone.
I died alone in a foreign country during one of the toughest periods of my life. But I count it as one of my life’s best highlights. I was not afraid, rather totally at peace, and it was beautiful. I was upset to be sent back.
Today is the birthday of my mother who died two years ago, and as long as I can remember, I loved her.
Sending you love & hugs today dear Ose. ❤️🙏❤️
Thank you for your kindness and care, dear pkr, and of course, my heart is with you, too. Wishing from my heart for you to be well and loved also. 🙏💕💫
When my daughter was born I felt so much love that I thought I couldn‘t bear it . It was overwhelming. I never felt so much love in my life. I would have given my life for her. At the age of five month she got a vaxination and she became handicapped. Her mother couldn‘t bear it and left us. I gave up my life as an artist and learnt my new profession as a nurse. Since almost thirty years I have the chance to love. But there is another love also. It may sound philosophical. But often in my meditation I feel very strongly we are born in love , we live in love, and we will go in love. Things coming… love, things are not coming.. love. Some how we are made out of love.
Hermann-Josef, you are a beautiful human being. Thank you for all the love you have & are pouring out into our world. The world is badly in need of your selfless love. Your daughter is blessed to have you. May you be an example to us All. ❤️🙏❤️
” The world is badly in need of your selfless love” – yes! and if I may add – in need of yours, mine and of all our selfless love. To care for in this way like you do, dearest Hermann-Josef is humbling me and you have my deepest respect. All my heart is with you. May blessings always be with you also, dear friend.
My heart is bursting open!
What a love this love is. Thank you for sharing your story.
Dear Hermann-Josef, Your reply is so beautifully moving. It really warms my heart. A hug for you and your daughter💞
Such a tender story, Hermann-Josef. You sir, are the manifestation of love itself.
So do you dear Kevin. We all love Love. And we all love to love. In my believe we all came here to express love. To express ourselves. Because in essence we all are love finding creative ways to have a look at ourselves, and to give others the chance to express their love. Serving, loving and giving is a great joy to all of us. It is a natural joy. Because it is not my love, his or her love. In this we are not separate from each other. We are one. ( normally I don‘ t talk that much. I am sorry. This page is somehow tempting. )
You sir too, are the manifestation of love. . .
We are one.
I am so sorry to hear that vaccination damaged your daughter, and it’s so sad that your wife couldn’t cope. It’s a credit to you that you didn’t abandon your baby. Vaccines can be amazing things, but it angers me that governments like to pretend vaccine injuries do not happen.
As a child, a new family moved in a few doors down from me, I was so excited because I was the only girl, surrounded by boys in my road. I loved playing football and riding my bike but I wanted a girl to play dollies with and I’d been told that the girl moving in was my age. The family arrived, it was a mother with a severely handicapped daughter. The daughter had no hands, no legs below the knees and was severely mentally impaired, almost no speech. She had been vaccine damaged as a baby, abandoned in the hospital by her parents. A young nurse had adopted her, she was utterly devoted to her adopted daughter, she never married and looked after her until her death. Such selfless love. The daughter, now a woman in her late 50s still lives in the same property with full time carers.
Love has a myriad of forms, I agree with you, love is the essence of us and of life.
🙏 yes i think so too. Love is what is and expresses itself in countless forms. Thank you Iamme .
When I felt love burn.
Karel my husband had problems with his left hand. The doctor wanted a scan because he thought it might be a minor stroke. The result was a shock; a brain tumor the size of a fist. We had ended up in a strange mill. A hospital psychologist came to assist us. She asked me how I felt. All I could say as tears streamed down my cheek. “I only feel love and it burns”. That was really all I felt. It was so real and straight from the heart. Perhaps the most genuine feeling I’ve ever had in my life.❤